No Way To Blame Poem by Blue Angel

I wish I could blame you for all the pain that I feel.

Sometimes I wish at you I could point the guilty fingers,

For all the sad moments I felt inside me:

My heart bleading, my dreams of having a father scaping.



I wish I could blame you for not being able to hold a relationship.

Sometimes I wonder if my problems with you weren’t all the causes of my problems.

For all the struggles that I lived.

My heart missing a father, my heart not knowing what to do.


But then, I look outside..

The sun, the stars, the flowers…

So much to learn, so much to live,

So sensible I am, so insensible you seem.



I grew a woman, we grew apart,

Yes, I am a survivor, yes, I miss you,

But my life moves on, with a hole in my heart,

Without having you my father,



Still, no way to blame,

I have my life to live,

And for life I must move,

And for selflove strive.



Will I cry for you? yes,

Do I cry because of you? Yes.

You are my father, my blood,

And I only wish that you would love me

for who I am, your daughter, your blood.



No way to blame, I am who I am.

You are who you are,

An maybe one day, you might feel as a true father,

or maybe, I might feel that I don't need a father.



Until then, yes, I'll cry,

But on my way,

I'll live, I'll smile,

I'll pray...