Paradox Poem by moon light

I m lost..
The best way I chosed

I now can't define
What is inside me..

Peacefulness and Sadness
Two things are half by half

My eyes are crying
But my heart is warm

I m smiling
But I feel weak

I m lost
But i still hope

I wanna shout loud
But still in tension

I wanna go near U
But my pride not allow me

I m in paradox
Although i chosed the best way..
Cos i can't feel the hurtness form lost..
since it is my charismatic..

...Hope Better Soon.....