Please Forgive Me(A Lesson To Every Woman) Poem by Harbihorlar Eunice

please forgive me
for letting you stray
(An innocent soul left for the wolves)
A plain eye paint with blood...
for blaming you
for shaming you
Am sorry for my fears and fake ways
(a sister filled with envy and vicious talk
for been too comfortable with lil,
Ravishing in a tiny hole and feeling spacious,
For taking so little and accepting less...

please forgive me
for loosing
for running
for crying
for whining
for complaining
for not grateful
Am sorry for destroying you
(an lil kid in a very harsh world)
please forgive me for pretending
for being too serious with nothing
And feeling invaluable
Am sorry for being selfish
when clearly all you need is frank and fair judgement

please forgive me
for not loving you enough
for not caring
for not taking
for not believing
for moving with the usuals
for being too different
am sorry for the fears i had
and the fears i hide
for limiting you as a weak vessel
believing too much that its men's world
am sorry for being so afraid
for not speaking
for not fighting
for not moving
(a lady caught off guard in a dark age)
for comparing you
for hating you
for faking you

please forgive me
for taking so long to know
for being too impatience
for being so selfish with you
for giving up
for being too nice
(cos the too nice people easily got thrown away)
for being in secured...
an sorry for limiting you
for pleasing others above you
for the rush
for the time not well spent
for every minute wasted
for every opportunities lost
(because of stupidity and lies)

please forgive me
for hiding
for the look down
for the knock down
for not getting up in time
for not giving it enough time
am sorry for not healing
for not praying
for not living
for not trying
for not sharing
(cos i never thought id need myself, always finding it hard to keep it moving and i end up hurting me instead)

Dearest Me,
Thank you!
Thank you for standing with me
thank you for making your fears visible
for standing tall in your courage
and not letting me down
for loving me as i expose my scares
for each fall, each crack, each breaks, each pains
for lending me your life
and being my umbrella
for being all part of who I'm
and still forever trusting God
you and me
we are one and the same
you found me
so you can live for me
Thank you and please forgive me...
#TheDiaryOfAnAfricanGirl#