Prayer Through Pain Poem by Katerina Val

Trembling hands, wounded arms
Holding the fetus of a battling heart
Drawing circles of water on a dry unstable land
Hopeful promises blown through glass
Turn to nothingness

He bent and prayed to his God
He grew a greedy pain inside, he couldn't stop
He dragged a cigarette out of his pocket
And then a knife, a gun or a dagger
Black heart, blackened brain
And his thought avoiding me abandoning him
Like the devil does before God

His mind kneeling before that cry

Who's the God of God?
Who cant stop him from continuing the terrible things that he has done?

I saw God yesterday on a bench sidewalk praying for today
His eyes so fake, his existence could not save
That single man's pain
He stayed sore
So why exist?
When there is not a safe road to die?

Why to live
When there is no hope of crying?

Who's the god for god right here?

Why to forgive
When there is no reason to sin.