Quite So Poem by La'Chelle Yount

As I sit and question a turn of events
I can not help but wonder why or what
Something within me must put off those
One so intriguing and smart, full of clever
Aside from obvious laughter brought on my him
My mind is bitter against anything of myself
To want to know more, possibly everything
Feeling alive and vibrant once more
As though someone gets me… finally
Only to find out the horrid of me has done it again
Not really knowing how or what I feel
A heart that laughed has now become sad
Curious to know more of him and his world
Getting a glimpse of him, someone so incredible
Then the switch is turned and something is amiss
Unsure if it was something of me… indeed failure
Still wondering what thoughts pass his mind
Hoping some how to be one that lingers still
Without word it seems, days to weeks and week to months
Uncertainty of not being what is desired any longer
Time passes and believe it or not, no healing is found
Just questions really, quite deeply felt
A surprise to even myself at this point
Should I not be used to this by now?
Quite so…