Scared Poem by johanna damon

hes been in jail for a year and 3 days
no like im counting
he says he wants to write me a letter
im scared
what will it say
what will i write back
god knows i miss him and still love him
he was a jerk
he broke my heart
im scared hell do it again
i want to know what he has to say
im terrified to know what he has to say
what will i do?
so confused and scared
i need him want him cry over him
i thought i left his memory in the past where it belongs
then i hear he wants to write me a letter
bringing it all back up
i hurt all over again
his memory was in the past
then he did this to me
does he know i just moved on
does he know how hard it is for me to deal with all of this
he doesnt know what is going on in my life
yet he insists on putting himself back in it
he might not realize it but thats how it is for me
im so scared hell want me back
im terrified that i wont have the strength to say no to him