Shadow Ghost Poem by Nate Jones

sometimes i feel like nobody cares
and that they all have deaf ears
never leaving my comfort zone
and for that i am totally alone
gasping for even a half breath of affection
but why i am choking on the toxic smoke of rejection?
being my true self would be my demise
hidden behind my facade of lies
so f*cked up and bitterly died
a half emptied cup
and with unlovely words thoughtlessly said
all the friends i seem to lose
punching my body until i see bruises
me and God use to be so close
now lost in the world like a shadow ghost
taking others for grant but then their gone
a lonesome chant were did i go wrong?
awful jesters while your tongue stabs my chest
get rid of me because by nature i am worthless
my dark, lonely heart stops peaceful cardiac arrest
always taking away never giving i am useless