Sitting Wondering Poem by Stephanie MIller

sitting on the side walk,
waving at the camera saying,
' look daddy, I'm drawing with chalk! '
A happy lilt 3 year old girl
With no care in the world.

Sitting on the bus,
first day of first grade saying,
' look mommy, I'm a big girl now! '
A happy lilt 6 year old girl
Only thing on her mind was what was in her lunch box.

Sitting at the kitchen table saying
look daddy, I made your favorite pie, and mommy helped! '
A happy lil 9 year old girl
Feeling good about herself by making her dad smile.

Sitting on the grass looking up at the stars saying
' why did i run away? i doubt my parents will ever care! '
A little 12 year old girl
ending up going home... to her parents sleeping and not caring

Sitting in her bedroom watching the videos of when she was 3 saying
' my parents did love me at one point, now they think I'm a bad kid '
an upset 15 year old girl.
Knowing her life has changed completely

Who knows where she'll be sitting next, maybe saying
' that's it, I can't take this anymore. '
an upset girl, with a knife in one hand and a note in the other.
Knowing she'll be better off not here.....