So Hard Poem by deborah mae lacay

it hurts.. i don't know why, it just did
i don't know how it began, i just found out it's there already
seeing you just around is making me harder each day
you're indeed there, yet so away from me..

it's so hard to deal with this
figuring this out is the hardest thing to do yet i can't miss
i don't even know what it is, to hell with everything!
can you help me get through all of these..?

i have always been a slow learner
while you're always the achiever
so efficient, so good in whatever you do
i feel so left out, never owning a place in your fast-paced world.

yes we've always been on different pedestals
yours have always been on higher ground
that no matter what i'll do i can never get there
but who knows time would be so good and take me there.

i'm not looking forward for eternity
i know that would just sound absurd for both of us
but this time, all i have is a simple plea..
please don't make everything any harder than this..