Stand Alone.. Poem by william hammond

i really hope theres a heaven
at the end of this hell,
because ive struggled and im tired, i refuse
to waste another coin on this broken well..
ive touched some with love but its always
beaten down by sorrow,
and im fed up with people who say they care
but im a stranger tomorrow..
i dont just believe lies, i believe in them because
they give me a fantasy,
my own dreams keep out of reach, its like even
they are ashamed of me..
to donate anything is nothing, but you cant have
my heart because you may destroy its beauty,
but i dont expect anyone to understand because
noone really knows me..
mom said to never give up, but ma, i dont have
anymore fight,
ive given it my all, but still, im stuck in this
sorry a** life..
i fought with flesh and blood till this world ripped
away my bone,
i see many people in front of me, but inside
i stand alone......

w.h.2010