Staring Into Space Poem by natasha headstrong

I sit and stare at this computer screen
willing it to write...
all the words inside of me
but I'm empty from the fight

I'm at a loss from your words
cruel and painfull yes
just the other day my dear
were your words just a test?

such beautiful things you typed to me
that tears streemed from my eyes
and all I wish now, is for you to believe
that you will come throught this and survive

I cried because you can be so sweet
It made me forget the cruel
I cried because I'm scared of losing
the light that is in you

I even typed, throught my tears
the ones you never see
this is a dream and I do so fear
tommorrow you'll feel differently

perhaps I am a psycic
because thats just what happened,
you laughed and acted as if
you never typed those sweet words
and the song lyrics to an 80's riff

I sit right here and try to write
something beautiful and painful so
you just emailed me, probably more harsh words
do either of us even know?

when this will stop, please - let this missery end
I only wanted to love you
I didnt want anger to set in
and now hate is what we grew

I cannot stop these tears I cry
and they arent from happiness
as the other night when I read your words
now shattered, so sweet, but meaningless

If I could reach right through this computer screen
and have the chance to hold you,
and tell you it really will be allright
and its okay that we are through...