Sub-Conscious Instinct [revised] Poem by Margaret Alice Second

She claimed looking for comfort and love on arrival -
protection from her terrible debts, she wanted to marry
quietly after a week, the magistrate’s office no ado or
friends and family - I said go home, fix your life, only
a pre-nuptial contract would induce me to marry you

She settled for contract and church with complaints
next day, at her wedding she looked like an angry
cloudburst, no sparkle or laughter, claimed anger at
her mother; then she was hysterical about her debts -
like a fool I paid. She got pregnant against my advice

Increased pressure to be debt-free, even though loving
relations were banned I paid - that’s what men do; then
she said I failed to meet her romance needs, a liability
in life she wanted. Her car I’d paid she insisted I fix,
laughing I said lovingly she’s good at getting credit

Truck arrived for her things, I had to fight in keeping
the bicycle bought with my money; as she left I felt
relief, constant pressure off, knew I’d never love an
ice-cold, self-centred person draining joie de vivre.
My sub-conscious instinct believed she

Intended swindling me, it surfaced as I reviewed all
events objectively, she tried to cheat me out of my
house; glad she showed her colours soon enough
to protect me from her grasping hands and those
unending complaints…

4 October 2013