Suffocated Poem by lindsey ashton

My soul is suffocated, my spirit cannot breath,
They’re desperately trying to find a way to leave,
They’re dying inside me, fading away,
I know I should help them, but I want them to stay.
I’m holding them back, don’t know what else to do,
Because if they leave me, then I will go too,
But not with them, they’d leave me alone,
Wondering the darkness on my own.
I beg them to stay, not to leave me,
But they can’t hear me, they’re screaming,
Screaming for me to do it now, For me to set them free somehow.
My spirit gets the vodka, my soul passes the knife,
“Do it now, take away your life,
You’re keeping us here in this miserable shed,
When you know for all of us you’re better off dead.
We need you to do it, go on, have a drink,
Don’t give yourself any time to think.
Prisoners we are in your unhappy life,
Come on girl, pick up the knife,
Not for yourself, do it for us, you have to
For years we’ve put up with miserable you,
But now we cant breathe, we are suffocated,
Why carry on life when by all you are hated?
That’s a good girl, you know what to do,
Just hold out your arm and cut straight through.
It wont be long now, until we can go,
You’ve done the right thing, we wont suffer anymore.
Thank you friend, now we’ll leave you alone
To wonder the darkness on your own”.
Did I make the right choice, did I do the right thing?
Now its my voice that I can hear screaming.
For eternity I’ll wonder the darkness alone,
Because I set free my spirit and soul,
I owed it to them to help them leave,
But now I’m the one suffocated, now I cannot breathe.