The Blood Poem by Peter Bishop

I am bleeding the crystal tears
Which is all I can do to hide my fears.
I am broken and along
I feel like I don’t even belong.

I try to block all the memories
That flutter around like cursed fairies.
I am tired of trying to forget
Because all that this causes is regret.

I miss you a lot my dear father
I wish I could put all the blame on my mother.
I can’t no longer blame her because she just wanted you there
To have someone teach her that the world isn’t always fair.

To me you’re a deep dark scary mystery that haunts my dreams
Never letting me escape to the sunshine’s brightest beams.
I wish you knew that I will never be able to fly
Because thanks to you a big black hole took place of my perfect blue sky.

I wish I would just open my eyes to the reality you left behind
For me to stay and learn where the clue is that you left for me to find.
My heart is frozen like an undeletable frozen block of ice
Why don’t you let go of your pride and let that be your sacrifice.

Your son is waiting for you to come to be with him forever
Unfortunately he knows your answer will always be the same as never.
He wants you to know that he will always love you unconditionally
But he wishes that your love for him wasn’t partially.

Your son waits hiding what is truly going on inside his heart
Wishing you would just do your fatherly part.
He feels like you don’t care about him or his achievements
All he thinks about are your broken commitments

He wants to be a baby so you can always be with him holding him tight
Ready to teach him everything that you know will be right.
He wants you like the flowers want rain
But all you bring is horrible terrorizing pain.

He waits while life has him behind bars
All he wishes upon are shooting stars.
Where are you my dear friend
Today shouldn’t be the end.

I want you to remain in my life forever and always
But you decided to fly far from my life faraway