The Release Poem by Sneha Murali

the past did stab my eyes
to shed the tears of blood
everyday my thoughts did rise
away from the people i loved

i thought i was different
i thought i was smart
but i learnt now that i cannot depend
even upon my own heart

memories crush me from deep inside
they remind me of my mistakes
they remind me of thoughts that haven't died
with each one, my heart it breaks

sometimes i wish i'd never been born
i feel i've caused people soo much pain
i feel that i should have just gone
somewhere...where i'd never get hurt again

shadows creep upon me
like spiders on my back
they chain me up, i'm never free
my mind just feels soo blank

i feel just dying would reduce my pain
and the pain of others too
i know when i'm not wanted, i'm just no gain
it's hard for me to live the way i do

i pray and pray, but it's just no use
my life doesn't change at all
even god hates my stupid views
i feel everyone's just looking for my fall

i cry and cry every single day
but no one's eyes sees my tears
no one listens to anything i say
no one comforts me from my fears

i feel my tears are of no value
but i only have myself to blame
to be happy, what do i have to do?
i feel that my life's just a game

i've listened to advices short and long
but none that comes from the heart
they have said, 'be brave', 'be strong'
yet i know not where to start



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