Vindicate Poem by Faeza gilani

Why do I need to vindicate? ? ? ?
That secretly;
I live on in love with you
Knowing dam well that
It's all in vain
when I've to renounce you to your face,
And yet!
thinking of you makes
my cheeks go pale
I die; I faint; I fail
O! how,
I long for you to hide in your arms
this quivering and trembling body of mine
And let your love
In kisses rain on my lips
Slowly whispering my name
And I promise with all my heart
I'll answer you and not wait.
So tell me do I need to vindicate.

If so, why! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !