What Is In My Heart Today? Poem by Kenneth Maswabi

I am a marshmallow of emotions
The hour of pain has pierced my being
My body, mind and soul is in shambles
All the fires of sorrow have been ignited
The receptacle of life is submerged in sadness
My friends are losing mothers, fathers and sisters
My heart is bleeding for them
As the scourge of Covid-19 disease blows through their homes
Not restrained by anything, the menace is on a rampage
The turbulent waters of my spirit are breaking me apart
The ink from my heart is turning dark
I cannot see through the thicket of sorrow
My body, mind and soul are in turmoil
I cannot silence my spirit
It's the hour of pain
And I have to let my tears flow
It's not foolishness
It's the remedy for my predicament
I have to pour out my sorrow
I have to cleanse my body, mind and soul
I have to recover my peace of mind
I have to pass through this hour of pain
I have to be strong
It's not weakness that inhabits my body, mind and soul
It is Love and sorrow
It's not hopelessness that I want to accommodate
I am a spirit being
And my strength is found inside the realm of Silence
But life has to take its course
I cannot stand on its way
I will face the stormy waters and be engulfed in sorrow
I cannot demand happiness
When my friends are submerged in sorrow
I cannot ask for peace
When humanity is buried under the storm
I can only let my heart wobble with pain
I can only allow my tears to fall
So that I can be free from the viciousness of the storm
I can go back to my true self
And unite my mind, body and soul in the garden of peace
It will take more than tears to pass through this storm
It will take faith, hope and Love
It's not my thoughts (logic)
Thinking will not get me anywhere
It's only the Silence within
That will open the gates
And set me free
Inside the everlasting ocean of nothingness

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