What Kind Of Love Is This? Poem by Nyx C Styx

it's never love
if it doesn't destroy you
And I knew
that through you I would burn
and become ash
and be born again
born anew
but I just didn't want to move
and left myself to the
vultures of uncertainty
to pick away at the limbs
I promised myself to
hold you with
once

I am flammable
so I know I could resist
my own flames of desire
if I just give it the time
and time
He dances funny
moves fast when you least expect him
glacial when you need him
So through my eyes set on fast forward
I know there is no future
family photograph with you by my side
And I want to get there
to that future
where I carry in my arms
the birthed sorrows of my solitude
whom have always nursed from my breast
I need to get there
to stand alone
so I can move on
but so as long as you are in view
I will dream again
of you
and me
my flaming fantasy
what kind of love is this