When Did You Stop Being Enough? Poem by Mwenyeji Spikes

I keep trying persistence, then patience.
I went slow on faith, yet the believe in myself falters
When did I stop counting on myself?
At the window opening, did i sell out to the opposition?

Virtues, character, timing, passion and focus
I was at the tip of getting it all right
Then my feet sunk deeper in self doubt
One i was rooted firm like a tree besides a stream
I had conversations with self of what I'd be

In my dreams the weight tipped off
Woke up to the feeling of inadequacy
Self sufficience drifting further and further away
When did you stop being enough?
The question lay rhetoric on my mind
Did their whispers and prying eyes breed self doubt in me?

Realized nobody could counter the force
Hope to be better and make mileage
All the energy I hoped to unleash on my dreams
on the world that once seemed to be on my platter
All is now crumbling down to insufficiency
Self doubt draining the courage from my heart
When did you stop being enough?