When Love Needs Me Poem by Erika Conti

when love let me down
i used to run
and hide
in myself
thinking
'nobody
is important
only me'
now
you
made
me
see
how wrong
it is
my only me
when i let love down
saying
i love you
and caring
for my
only me

only me
is nothing
when
love
needs
love
and
love
needs
you

one thousand times more
i must break down
and destroy
this
only me
one thousand times more
i must open my eyes
to
love
one thousand times more
i must slash
my heart wide
awake
to bleed
and surrender
one thousand times more
i must
be disgusted
by the horrors
of my ego

there's a path
that my spirit was walking
long before
we were born
to learn the
'don't' s
i had enough
to chase the fake
has no appeal

blind
and
crazy
i seek truth
and preach love
missing
them both
at once

there is no final answer
the answer
is every now
when you dare
to look into
innocent eyes
and listen

i hate myself
i hate the hypocrite in me
the 'how convenient' smile
i crack
when i don't care
i hate myself
when i deny
my joy
my tears
when i follow
empty rules
that hold no meaning
i hate myself
when i call myself free
when i call myself a lover
and i'm a slave
just like anybody else
and my heart is frozen
and my mind is a mess
when love
needs love
and love
needs me
and
i
m
not
there
..