When What Why How? Poem by Silence Dogood

I know its not your fault.
But I'll blame it on you.
Im too afraid to face the truth.
And admit jealousy.

I dont know how to keep going.
What steps I must take.
I know hes just a guy.
But I love him so deeply.

Why cant things work out for once.
Why cant I be happy?
Do I always have to feel such pain?
Isnt there something else?

I use to smile.
and have a genuin laugh.
Where did that go.
When did I change.

I opened up my chest for you.
But you ripped away my heart.
You didnt do it on purpose.
But I cant help wondering.

When did things become this way.
When did pain take loves place.
When did tears crash around me.
When did my heart break apart?

When.
What.
Why.
How.