Where To Start... Poem by hazem al jaber

oh.. darling...
i have many things to say..
i say many things, and so much...
don`t know how to start...
and from where to should i talk...
have many things inside, ,
and can`t talk any...

most of my life started with a pains..
and all pains started with me...
and any start, begin with a troubles...

oh.. sweetheart...
even with any trouble, became another ones...
how i can tell you...? ? ?
while i don`t know, how to tell..
tell you what...? ? ?
tell you from where..? ? ?
and tell you about what..? ? ?
while every problem became, many problems..

please, don`t ask me, more...
cause, even me don`t know...
even don`t know the difference, between the happiness and the sadness..
and don`t know more what is the right nor the wrong...
destroyed...
broken...
confused...

but all what i can say...
my life is started, with a cries when i born..
and then with a hard life...
and sure i am that it will ends with a sad life..
so, i still Alfie, while i am not...