"Why" Poem by Natalie Nicole Story

...no...
we agreed this wouldn't happen
you touch me anyway
you touch yourself
I look away
why did I come here
why
God protect me
God make sure I don't get anything from this person
...protect me
...get me out of here
I pushed you away
I pushed you away
I said no
we went over this beforehand
I'm not diane
I don't do these things
why are you doing these things to me
I want to run, I want to flee
...subconscious fear, kept me there
...appease until you can leave
...God make it so
get me out of here
it's so hot in that room
like hell on earth
like the hell I chose
no, it's not your fault they lied
but I should have known
I should have not gone
money isn't worth the risk
I just want to help
but there's no help for you...
you are gone
too far gone
what did you do to your daughter
I don't want to know
I just can't
it burns you?
Good! ! !
instant God got you
how could you
take advantage of someone who only sought to help
fools
so many fools
I sometimes feel like one myself
so naive...
...to ever believe
...so many lie and have ulterior motives
...is anyone trustworthy
I didn't have a lack of peace...so why did it happen
I trusted my gut, my instinct
was it talking...just too quietly
or was I supposed to have that happen
so I could learn
learn what...more pain
unreasonable
inseasonable
I want to go home...
...but does that even exist...
...i used to be so certain
but now I only know some
not sure
just here
where...I'm not sure
just here
in your arms
my face in your crease
the ground beef
my happy place
my happy place
I just want to be in my happy place
God please take this away
make it fly
make it night on my discontent
make it light on my ascent
bring it all to sight
what is right
in your plight
my fight
no longer mine
I hand it over to you
my only true
my blue
my love
my dove
...