Why Do I Feel Like I'M Losing Something I Never Had? Poem by LeighAnna Williams

Why do i feel like I'm losing something I never had?
I sit here waiting for some kindof clue a sign
to face the lines between this rag book.
my faded dreams blurr into a distance and I no longer exist
I don't know where I should be or who I am or who i shall become
there's this pain I feel inside I just can't break free of.
I miss you but there's no real proof that 'm in love with you.
you'd think I'd be the fair and you'd be the game but it seems I'm
the one getting played in this affair...it hurts
and I no longer understand if I'm losing it
If I don't break free I know I'll never know what
I could have had for just one night
so hey you tell me the answer to my question......
'WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING SOMETHING I NEVER HAD? '
I must be crazy so look again and pull me through to reality and break this spell.