Yesterdeath Poem by Raja Ali

Words come to me, but I refuse to write
Your love haunts me and I cant fight
You made up your mind, that is not right
I was out of you, like a stray kite

What is wrong with you and why do you do this
Made me come closer than your soul
And shoved me away
Like I didn't even matter to you, I'm killed, I'm crowed

Your body, your touch, bares a mark on me
I've tried to hide it, but no it denies me
I cried, I died, every second, every time
Loving you, I never thought could become a crime

And I've loved you and cared
You have neglected and I fried
I sufficed but not any more
Ill be gone and I wont cry not a shore

Sacrificed my self, my freedom, my future
Just for those eyes that I thought never lied
Made a fool out of me, what a trial
I still love you, even though I cant see you

If I did see your face, Id forget what happened and
embrace you with grace
But you hurt me a lot, not even that face deserves
another chance but I give you
Why should I stay, why should I suffer
When you lied to me and had already choose that bluffer

I'm hurt and off all people, by you
I cant forget this, and so does what's left of my heart
You struck like lightening and shot that dart
I told you and, and you still know, It is and it always was you

I cant even cry now, I'm out of tears
But God knows me so he made it rain
The rain knows my pain, never in vain, what I had sustained
But now life woke me up, and I will restrain

From seeing you, your my weakness
Even though I've told you, you've never cared
But him, you always said, he loves you
He never comes to meet you, what a love, cant even
meet, what a love!

Then he is compared to me, and he wins the race
Why this complication, you have ruined me
You have made me a disgrace
Do not ever love because you don't know what it is

You have played with my heart, my tiny hell of a heart
Killing myself would've been a a lot easier than to endure this
Should have said, go kill yourself and trust me I have tried too
But what you did yesterday was a cataclysm, it vanished my heart

From the moment I laid eyes on you, I fell in love
Not now, months ago, Its going to be a year now
And you still needed time
All you had to do was say

But you didn't and you let me get so close to you
And now even the thought of going away from you scares me
This is my life, not a game
But you lied, what a shame

We laid together and the moments we spent
Might not ever come back
Your scent, your touch, Its all I ever had
You had to lie, it makes me sad

Trust is what I still have blindly
You played me, my love, on purpose, because of him,
despite me
God knows me and knew how much you mattered
So he made it rain, clouds he shattered

From the time we watched the stars
All I imagined, how amazing we are
But you shattered my dreams in to oblivion
When you said you love him till infinity

I love you and will love you, beyond that
Ask your heart, ask your soul
They'll tell you my tale thus far
They'll say he loves, he cares about you, you'll still say no
as If I never cared

Glared, impaired, my love cant be shared
From you and it always was you, I dared
Never asked, and you never told
Who has it, the luckiest, who your love holds

Its not him, don't lie again
Lives two minutes away
And still doesn't see you
I walk miles and break bones, to see your face

If I don't deserve your love, he definitely doesn't, your holding
on to a spike
And your letting go of me, the one who just, to make you smile,
can go to hell and come back
But no you wouldn't care, but when you will
I wont be here to support who doesn't care

What did I do to deserve such agony
And then your like, what did I do?
You always have a choice, and I was your second
I never hurt you, hell I've never even raised my voice,
and you betrayed me

No worries, I wont forget this YesterDeath
As I will lie on the death bed
Wont forget what you did
All your lies what you hid

It all a game and I was a pawn
You never told me the truth, you lied
Within me, my heart struggled, it died
I hope this never happens to anyone in love, with this
prayer, may awaken a new dawn

Like my YesterDeath, may true love always blossom
Seeds of heaven, the plants of life, may forever be in their
favour
Love always has and will always be the one
My death maybe a joke, but you will remember me, and
what I wrote