'.You'Ll See.' Poem by Lady Ysabel

I've always thought I wouldn't make it
I've always thought I couldn't take it
I've been so scared being left alone
I've always thought I couldn't make it on my own

So many days I've been crying a lot
Losing myself and everything I've got
So many dreams that became nightmares
Each and every night it makes me suffer

All the memories kept on haunting me
Every moment of it just kept on hurting me
It was never easy for me to forget
But still I couldn't make myself to regret

I tried to hide what i feel inside
Tried to pretend, I tried to lie
I made them believe I was doing just fine
I never showed them tears, always I smile

I've always tried to look real tough
Even my heart cries, I tried to laugh
I had to make them see that I am strong
Eventhough deep inside me it was all wrong

It took me sometime before I knew
I was losing myself, didn't got a clue
I was so damn fool to hurt myself all along
I've got to get myself back before it's gone

Now I'm ok and starting a new life
Not so fine but I'm alright
And I know I will be real good someday
I know I will be happy again one day

I may have hurt and cried before
I may have done myself wrong much more
But still I believe someone will be there for me
Someone who will love me the way I wanted to be

Someone who would want me the way I needed you
Someone who would never leave me the way that you do
Someone who would always care and stay
I know..I just know it will happen someday.