Out of the shadow,
Clarity washing away the residential delusion.
Indescriminate light blinding my soul,
All I knew-now,
...
I was considering today all the years I have written poems and such.
I wish I had them all to sum up my life,
But alas,
They along with some pieces of my life,
...
I sat here tonight,
having a moment of quiet.
You came in,
unannounced though welcome.
...
Shut-up, insecure nonsense!
I am claiming the good in me.
I am claiming all the wonder I am as a human.
I am claiming all the glory I am as a woman.
...
I love you, Yes.
But Bigger.
Bigger than tears and smiles.
Bigger than saddnes, happiness,
...
Lost in a sea of abandoned dreams
and disillusionment.
Treading water for a breath
of hope.
...
My broken eyes, the years and the tears,
The anger, the fears, the wrinkles and the deep regret.
The patience lost, the happiness tossed,
The trampled moments and the unfulfilled promise.
...
You tried to break me, tear me down.
Distruction is all you know.
And yet,
You couldn't destroy the unexpected beauty that is me.
...
I awoke this morning and felt a hole.
The familiar hole I have felt for years,
Decades.
Everytime I have to let you go away,
...
When finding yourself,
Don't forget those that loved you
Even though you were lost.
...
Its embarrassing to be that person.
To love someone that doesn't feel the same.
The saddness, patheticness.
The weakness.
...
Reality is love has been lost,
But friendship has been gained.
Reality is I am sad,
But will laugh again.
...
I said, 'No one else sees me.'
You said, 'Let them.'
I let them.
I want to hide again.
...
Reality
Out of the shadow,
Clarity washing away the residential delusion.
Indescriminate light blinding my soul,
All I knew-now,
Not.
Air of the light, thin.
A journey once predictable,
Now breaths on its own.
Delusion shattering,
As stained glass to floor.
Looking away a fleeting comfort.
The light, the reality, the clarity, the journey must be.
For it already is.