I’m anxious.
Can’t think straight.
Thoughts are scattered like
Pieces of paper.
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Thanks a Lot, Mom
Thanks a lot, Mom.
Thanks for loving me to no end.
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Slowly crawling out of this hole in the ground.
Falling back to that place where I scream no sound.
Drinking so that I can numb the pain.
Laughing until I can’t remember my name.
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I have no power here. No voice. No reason to continue fighting.
I have very little memory, actually, of what it was like to care.
I try to rejoice in my numbness: celebrate the dulled sounds, flat images, and jaded feelings.
The expression I wear is emotionally ambiguous at best,
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I wish I could leave my skin
For just one day.
See if with me
The hurt would stay.
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THE blood is disgustingly pretty. it's the perfect down for my
HIGH. they say cutting is your brain's
"ALMOST suicide". but, really, it just
MAKES my pain real. it's all
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I wanted to drink until I forgot
your scent lingering on my shirt when you would hug me.
I wanted to drink until I forgot
all your empty promises and bitter words.
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Bite your lip.
Keep in the screams.
Close your eyes.
Live in your dreams.
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Money makes the world go ‘round.
When I see my future, all I can think is
How far I'm going to go in life.
It doesn't matter
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Anarchy.
Total, complete chaos.
Live in death.
Die in combat.
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