please be my vampire,
my blood is in these pages.
let my words be your drink
...
Bury my name under your tongue
the way I will bury yours
because if my name escapes your lips
surely your heart will call out to mine
...
I have to keep reminding myself to forget you.
Forget you and me.
(Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, think happy thoughts.)
You wanted me to promise to never say it again
...
how often have I thought I knew what happiness was?
always in the future, just beyond my reach.
how many times have I arrived at my destination
to realize something is still wanting?
...
how do I explain to people
that you were my future?
that you are my ex-fiance
and best friend?
...
a soldier coming home
he gets off the bus and looks around
families are being reunited
and lovers are kissing
...
How can I live each day as if it were my last
When I haven’t had my first
How can you hold my heart
...
My heart askew and my brain out of place
I narrowly escape insanity on a daily basis
fuzzy clouds of sorrow and regret
that I lay my head on each night
...
drunk and alone on a saturday night
a few glasses of wine is all it takes
its feels so good to ease the pain
he's thousands of miles away
...