You'll see me cry, you'll watch every tear
But the words behind them, you'll never hear
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My inner self is a monster at most.
A powerful monster, a wretched monster.
I am unaware of my own capabilities-
but I am fully aware that I cause nothing but pain.
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You played with all the pieces -
Except the few you did not like.
You hid those in the cushions
Of the family couch nearby.
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The tear.
One single tear.
Fluttering there..
Like one single wound.
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Here we go with another sob story
The one about the beast within beauty
They're all the same just no happy ending
Life isn't perfect so just stop pretending
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I wasn't a happy person,
But I smiled for you.
Your kind eyes showed me that I wasn't alone
That other people know pain.
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I live and fight and scream and cry
Because words do me no good.
I cared and loved and shared my trust
Just like I knew I should.
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It's time.
I've waited too long for this and now...
It seems necessary.
Normally I am not one to inflict pain
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All my life I was surrounded by people..
Unhappy people, depressed people, suicidal people.
They outgrew that. I grew into it.
They know I'm on the edge.
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I learned quickly
I didn't love you.
I loved who you were.
You were kind, You were gentle.
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