stephanie Ann Lowe

I am left, unable to love as before.
All this time, I have wanted love,
and now that it is at my door, I cannot
bring myself to answer,
...

You were nothing short,
of a blessing to me,
But you began as a memory.
we knew our time wouldn't last.
...

Tonight,
I spoke with less words,
and more feeling.
...

i'm haunted, by a living man,
and his dying memory.
He stands before me.
made of carbon and ether.
...

I went to that place today.
The one you shared with me?
your special spot, the place that brought you peace...
...

I found out about your other girl friend today,
and the first thing i did, was lie.
about my past,
I would give anything to understand myself,
...

i'm sorry
i've been very busy saying my goodbye's lately,
and i barely had time to say hello.
i imagine it has been somewhat boring
...

today was a beautiful day.
and don't we all need beautiful days?
i'm glad I got to share mine with you,
...

you're half way across the world.
but in my little world, you are still the sun.
to say that i miss you.
is to say that i am breathing.
...

</>i need to speak
what is in my heart
i knew you kept telling me
we would have to part someday
...

I'm reminiscing.
about all the times we've struggled our way to somewhere near heaven,
with nothing to hide,
something to loose,
...

considering my life without you, reduced me to tears last night.

If selfishly i allowed it to show; my pain will become yours, you know, And I cannot be the cause of your suffering.

My Heart doled out a share for wisdom, and one for love in vein, another for hope, and still yet one more..of pain.
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I dont know how to say this
i've tried so many times before
maybe you just cant see it...
but i'll show it to you once more
...