Angela McCrimmon Poems

In front of you I smile, behind I sometimes cry,
To you I know the answers, to me I question why,
I act like I'm 'together'...this isn't always true,
You think that I am honest but I hide so much from you.
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I won't pretend that I don't care because I care beyond belief
I won't pretend that I'm okay because I'm lost amidst the grief,
I won't pretend it's easy because it's hard to be alive,
I won't pretend it doesn't hurt...but you know what? ...I'll survive!
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I know one day I'll make it and I know it won't be long,
I know one day you'll realise that you really got me wrong,
I'll hold my head up high for I know that you will see,
I am so much more than what this illness stole from me.
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I'm sinking deep and I'm sinking fast,
I'm doing my best to swim,
This breath I take could be my last,
I'm losing the strength within.
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I can see you talking but all I hear is noise,
You control the volume but I don't have a choice,
I'm caught up in this madness and you don't seem to see,
I feel like I am drowning out here in the sea.
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