In Front Of You Poem by Angela McCrimmon

In front of you I smile, behind I sometimes cry,
To you I know the answers, to me I question why,
I act like I'm 'together'...this isn't always true,
You think that I am honest but I hide so much from you.

In front of you I'm strong, behind I'm often weak,
To you I have a voice but I don't know how to speak,
You think I stand up tall but I'm sitting on the ground,
I'm such a different person when there's no-one else around.

In front of you I'm happy, behind I'm sometimes sad,
You always see the good cause i hide from you the bad,
You wouldn't understand so I keep it all inside,
I may have lost my mind but I haven't lost my pride.

In front of you I'm certain, behind you I do doubt,
I often contemplate what my life is all about,
I often feel confused, how did I end up here,
Confidence you see cause I camouflage the fear.

In front you see successful, behind you I see fail,
I try to keep on fighting but sometimes to no avail,
Sometimes I feel disheartened but then I realise,
These things I tell myself are nothing more than lies.