Babalwa Mbalula

I am who I am because of the goddess
Who gave birth to me
With her round body and her
Oooh so perfect childbearing hips
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I might only have been around for a few years
Some of you might even say my lack in years
Might have an influence on my view on
Certain things
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Last night I lay and cried
I had to
I was hurting
Letting some of the pain go
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Now as i sit here in your room
even though your gone
I can smell you
that sweet apricot smell
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Well i feel as though i've lost myself
i really have no idea where it all
went wrong
was it the day i tried to be someone else
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can i scream and not be heard?
can i cry and hope that no-one hears my sobs?
i'm trapped in this person
i don't wanna be
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never not even in a million years
would i have thought that i would
feel like this
loving so intensely
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