Becca Bell

To me, losing you would be my greatest loss
But you you, you've probably never been mine
You came into my life like a cool breeze
Everyone knows that you can't catch air
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This? This thing called love?
This was a challenge I was not up for.
I did not volunteer to go on this horrible journey.
I thought the unexpected coming of love was what made it beautiful
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I look in the mirror and see a girl,
Who is staring back at me.
I don't know who she is
But I know I've seen her before
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It's like a terrible addiction
I can't get enough
A tidal wave of attention
It swept me up
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Forget his name, forget his face,
Forget his kiss, and warm embrace
Forget the time you spent together
Remember now, he wasn't so clever
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Tears streaming down my face
As I hang up the phone
Hiding sadness is what I do best
I say a mere goodbye with a very heavy heart
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You tell me you love me
So why do I still cry in the cold?
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel the way you do
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Like the rain drops falling on a sunny day
Our creativity comes in bursts of whimsical nostalgia
With a new revelation springing forth into this first time conscious mind,
It is simple to take note, on all the wonders of art
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This is not the full poem; I left some of it out to preserve my personal dignity.

In secrecy, we lie
I'm trembling;
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Cry as a dove impacting the earth
In a cruel and demented flailing
As she tries to avoid the fall...
None the less, embracing the earth
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There's a place for us
That no one else can enter
It's a secret that holds non,
Because it's all our own;
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The taste of my chap-stick
This cheap adolescent disguise I wear
Guides me though all my realizations
You've downed my teenage ambition and all those frothy mistakes
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Once upon a time,
Nobody cared.
We were ignorant and happy
Innocent and content
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Daylight breaks through equal bliss,
All the reruns consume our history.
Falling from grace
I hope you'll come sit by me
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Who is she?
This creature, this person
Living with or without a smile
Lving in the same house with others
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You are not real
This person I want you to be
You are a figment of my imagination
My mind wanders
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You've no idea the effect you've had on me
And you will never know
For fear of me looking like a fool
I'd rather be in pain forever
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I swim in a sea of feelings
So close to drowning
Until you catch my breath and I’m above the surface again.
You and these emotions are so unsteady
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Such senseless lies we tell
Absurdities of the mind
Of the many, this is what irks me most of all
Why bother? Why try?
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I love you, I love you not
You do not determine my feelings for you, I do.
I love you, I love you not
You cannot manipulate me, or bend me to fit your mold.
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