Nobody []

It begins with a smile, a friendly wave.
Hanging out, sharing everything.
We grow close, and our bond deepens.
But it breaks with fights, name calling, assumptions.
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I hate my body.
It hates me too.
I look at myself
and see something that isn't true.
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Who am I?

Once a child, with happiness and not one care in the world.
Now a struggling person, Not having a clue what to do with their life.
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I might as well be mute.
My voice is horrid,
Its quiet and uneven,
I hate hearing it,
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It never was enough,
I never was good enough was I?
These thoughts and doubts.
I'm not very cool,
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Again, it feels as if everyone's gone, their presence still lingers, but
I'm alone with my thoughts, stuck in a dark void.
The feeling of loneliness is overwhelming
I feel unwanted, Unneeded,
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I'm starting to realize,
I don't know true friendship,
I was never treated right as a friend,
Their lies and backstabbing,
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It feels when I'm alone,
Darkness covers me like a blanket,
It cradles me in its arms,
My thoughts cirlcing in a never ending vortex of sadness and loneliness,
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Stuck in this loop.
My mental state is deteriorating.
I can only seem to get worse.
I'm restless
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I'm tired.
I cannot fall asleep.
In a state of constant fear.
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Failure.
Again and Again.

I've failed again. I'm stuck and lost.
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TW: Mentions of SH

I look in the mirror,
Wishing this would go away,
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I've thought about what would happen.
If I were to disappear.
Or simply pass away.
My head spins in the thoughts.
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Happiness.
What a fake thing.
Easy to fake.
It seems as if no one cares anymore.
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This bad taste left.
A horrid feeling.
You're here, but are you happier without me?
Maybe I've been a burden.
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This wall, built by what others seem to like.
Building higher and higher.
How long till it collapses?
How long till it doesn't hold?
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The enemy of all Hope, Joy and Love.
A heavy weight slowly causing destruction on the inside.
An invisible force, trying to break the spirit.
It is a dark night, and I am the lonely star.
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This faceless face,
Mirrored reflection,
Breaking me down
Tearing me up.
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Insecure, always questioning myself, Always overthinking,
Anxiety weighing me down and holding me back.
The fear of being judged is overwhelming,
And I let my doubts consume me entirely.
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Trust is a precious gift, Earned with compassion
But it is easily taken, Leaving scars that cannot be hidden
Trust breaks the hearts of those closest to us
And leaves our world spinning in doubt
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