It begins with a smile, a friendly wave.
Hanging out, sharing everything.
We grow close, and our bond deepens.
But it breaks with fights, name calling, assumptions.
...
I hate my body.
It hates me too.
I look at myself
and see something that isn't true.
...
Who am I?
Once a child, with happiness and not one care in the world.
Now a struggling person, Not having a clue what to do with their life.
...
I might as well be mute.
My voice is horrid,
Its quiet and uneven,
I hate hearing it,
...
It never was enough,
I never was good enough was I?
These thoughts and doubts.
I'm not very cool,
...
Again, it feels as if everyone's gone, their presence still lingers, but
I'm alone with my thoughts, stuck in a dark void.
The feeling of loneliness is overwhelming
I feel unwanted, Unneeded,
...
I'm starting to realize,
I don't know true friendship,
I was never treated right as a friend,
Their lies and backstabbing,
...
It feels when I'm alone,
Darkness covers me like a blanket,
It cradles me in its arms,
My thoughts cirlcing in a never ending vortex of sadness and loneliness,
...
Stuck in this loop.
My mental state is deteriorating.
I can only seem to get worse.
I'm restless
...