I am floating
on this coating of misunderstanding
I am worried
I am hurried, you are so demanding
...
I didn't understand
what was happening to you
I was young
but I should have been afraid
...
I fell asleep tonight not knowing what I was feeling
if I try it’s almost like I can hear you breathing
my thoughts return to all the innocence we left way back there
and I wake up and I don’t know why, but I’m scared
...
the smell of the grass
the sound of cars passing on a nearby street
the sight of you
all in a day, one hundred things so sweet
...
Late last night I dreamed of you
unlike most, this one was so real
I ran my fingers across your skin
I had forgotten the way that feels
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I bet you thought you'd get away with everything
when in reality I haven't forgiven anything
you're not any closer to innocence than before
and the bullets you shot at me still lay hot on the floor
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I look at you
and I want you to look back at me
but honestly, you don't see me
in that way
...
I hope I don't remember
that I was on the verge of tears when I wrote this
I hope I just remember
what I saw tonight
...
looking at you
it's like having the sun in your eyes
I used to think maybe it was
just a fake disguise
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I wish I hadn't ruined
your chance to be happy
what if you're like me
and it's the only chance you ever get
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