Kayla Jacobs

She feels so lost without her cuts
They've helped her through the worst
Her razor was a paintbrush
And the paper was her wrist
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why won't these feelings leave me be
they are fighting inside of me
telling me it's okay to feel the way i feel
i put my hopes up way too high
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while others accept my fake smile and laughs
you ignore them and want to know what's really wrong
why is that?
when others look at me and think everything is alright
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why fight for something that is already lost
don't pretend it won't hurt when you know it will
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i dont know if my heart will get through to you
sleeping here without you
wrapping my pillows around me
pretending its you
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take the knife
drive it deep
watch me as i scream
blood pools around
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I told him i didn't love him
he still stayed and fought
what does this mean?
He always said if i ever wanted it to end
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In your eyes i found the need to care
On your lips i found the need to taste
In your voice i found the need for the words 'i love you'
In your arms i found the need to be held
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I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.
How pictures never change but the people in them do
How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is When your worst enemy turns into your best friend
How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.
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Will you miss me if i'm gone?
Will you see the love i once had for you?

Do you want to see the heart i laid out for you?
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Have you ever listened to a song?
One that has real meaning?
Not something rappers use to take up their time
One that makes you cry once you hear it
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please dont leave me
i promise not to go
hurting myself is okay
as long as you stay
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blood streaming down my arm
tears staining the pillow
its finally over
im safe from doing you any harm
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she wants to be free
she wants someone to understand
the hurt she has hidden within
the pain she has written in her eyes
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i am but a dream
in this world you cannot see
please leave me be
i will not plead
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love can't be bought
hope can't be sought after
feelings doesn't just disappear
they are there even if you don't see
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being alone with the dark sky
twinkling with the hearts of broken lovers
in the dark world of ours
im still waiting
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i know this isn't what you wanted
not what you intended
just an escape from fate
the weight got too much
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in his arms
i lay awake
silently crying
for the things that are gone
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i can't face the fact that we arent together
cause we said we were forever
your with her now
and its tearing me apart
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