A Day In My Life Poem by Trevor McLeod

The sun streams in through my bedroom window
Casting soft light on me as I sleep
I open my eyes
and feel a pang of regret
looking across the other half of my bed
and I sigh
rolling over I stand up and glance about
my room big enough for two
only for me
I wonder as I prepare for the day
will I ever feel what it is like
to wake in the morning and to see
my love lying next to me

I shrug it off and move out my door
I may live with my family but
I am alone
even with them in the room with me I am alone
I keep busy so my mind won't wander
I find it only brings pain

I leave for work and grimace
My fake smile securely in place
I play as if nothing is wrong
when I am screaming inside
My work is slow
giving me plenty of time to think
tonight my family is going out of town
I am going to have the house to myself
so why is it I am not excited

My work finished
I leave to head home
My cell phone goes off
which is a surprise since I don't get many calls
I answer
I first hear the tears
then the voice
I don't hesitate
I forgo my plans
I pull up in front of her house
and knock on the door
as she opens the door
I feel my heart cringe
her face streaked with tears
eyes red from the length of crying
I don't ask I just pull her into a hug

I spend my time comforting her
soothing her pain
after while I succeed
she is able to smile
I smile back
she embraces me and pecks me on the cheek
she goes about her business and I let myself out
before she knows it I am gone
I know she is alright now


I decided to got o the movies
as I sit int he dark theater
I hear a noise behind me
I turn slowly to see
a young woman clutching the young man she is with
as monsters run rampant on the screen
he sooths her fears
holding her close and offering her comfort
I stand and leave

I get home to the dark and empty house
I don't feel like doing anything
so I get ready for bed
even though the night is still young
I feel tired
exhausted
I clutch my pillow to my chest
as the tears fall
this cold lonely existence
is this what I have in store for me
to constantly be surrounded by couples
going about their lives sharing
caring
loving
one another
is their anyone out there for me
can I be that special someone to someone
or am I destined to cry alone each night
alone in this bed

is their anyone who can love me
anyone who can care for me
the unyielding darkness has no answers for me
The darkness never answers