A Dream Poem by APPHIA GARCIA

I am sitting on the toilet seat,
My mind takes me to a place,
Somewhere I like to be but...
Also somewhere I hate.

The place is so far
Every time I think of it I get an additional scar.
I feel happy and yet I feel hurt
I feel joy and yet I feel pain.

Its a time of confusion,
It is complicated.
I feel like I am in love with him and he's in love with me.

But difficult times come around and I ask:
- How do I make a choice when there's only one option?
- Why do I allow myself to fall in love then to be hurt?
-But why is it so hard for me to let go?
- Is there really any thing like love?
Some times I feel the answer to that is no.

On Friday I saw him
We spent most of the time together
Dancing and laughing, talking and playing.
The night was over and I felt all alone
So I ask:
- How can I say I am leaving when I can't live without him?
-How will my life go on if he's not by my side?

My happiness is in his eyes,
In his joy, in his smiles.
Just wish when I wake in the morning
I can be greeted by the feel of his masculine chest,
The smooth touch of his hands
And the taste of his full lips.
Just wish i will not have to go a day without seeing him.

But its all a dream.
So everyday I whisper,
'Make my dream come true,
I love you forever babe
And I miss you.'