A Dream Of Mine Poem by Nina Wilson

Its not that I want to die
I already don't think I'm alive.
To live is just a pipe dream of mine.
I go day by day
Trying to turn a penny in to a dime
A routine I try to abide by.
Go to school to avoid a drive by
Living in my mothers worries
Cleaning my fathers debts

Oh its a dream of mine to be alive with full regrets
To live day by day because I'm alive
That's wht I say I will do
To bad that's just a dream of mine.
Insted day by day I die untill I'm dead

Oh boy! Is it my dream to have a beautiful demise.
But insted I will just be going on untill I'm dead

So I guess its not that I want to die
It just be better then sying I'm alive
Knowing its all a lie.