A Need Realized Too Late Poem by Noah Body

I need some amorphous thing
Not something covered in bling

A human touch, a single connection
Some help to halt this deep introspection

An ear to share these crippling fears
Or warm, snug hug to still these hated tears

But no one is there to hear the agonized calls
Nor anyone who can break through the walls

The masks now so thick that I've disappeared
Cessation of existence all along what I've feared

Way deep, down inside where I once was found
A dark evil emptiness is now all that's around

As inevitable as the tides I eliminated each one
Bleak shame o'er the beast made sure it was done

Created the reasons for this world to be leaving
Apart from all souls myself I've been cleaving

An impermeable edifice what has been erected
Lest disgust or pity in faces should be detected

Now apathy or hatred from each is engendered
The ties of friendship to hell's fires are tendered

Too late it becomes clear how great was the cost
They each offered love and were met with a frost

The need for what was destroyed cuts to the bone
A crushing blow to now face hell forever alone