Act: Friendship Poem by Maria Sudibyo

I don't know
How she suddenly becomes 
More beautiful
She acts nothing different
She talks nothing special
But her presence becomes 
Brighter than any other girls

I don't understand
How she slowly becomes
Important essence
She looks all normal
She gives all usual
But her warmth becomes 
The need for the air I breathe

So get it over
Let's make it broken
These innocent lips
These bond of friendships

So dread the worst
Just shoot the words
These awkward staring
These choked telling

I want to be miserable
So I can gladly regret
I want to leave you bad
So you could calmly hate

You should not make me feel this way
We should just take the fun together
I should not hope for something more
But I just ruin it all

I don't know
How he suddenly becomes 
More recognizable 
He dreams nothing romantic
He does nothing sympathetic
But his voice becomes 
Louder than any other boys

I don't know
How he slowly becomes
The joy of the day
He moves all ordinary 
He desires all common
But his light becomes
The sun for my eyes to see 

So do the destruction
Let's betray openly
These smiling irises
These sincere promises

So face the worst
Just love it falls
These trembling note
These burning tears

I want to drown in loneliness
So I can secretly forget
I want to lose you mad
So you could finally fed up

You should not take my heart away
We should just be comfortable together
I should not hope for something more
But I just ruin it all