Addicted Poem by Jessica Lindsey

i've never experienced addiction
with desperation or affliction
but there's no other way to diction-
this burning in my blood.

this desire, lust, devotion
controls all of my emotion
craving the toxic potion-
this longing in my blood.

the weakness to relapse
i never could quite grasp
until i suffered from the lapse-
this aching in my blood.

the fantasies that fill my mind
leave me hungry, leave me blind
pleading that i quickly find
my fix before i start to unbind.

this terror in my blood...

i sweat, i shake, i pant, i seethe
i need this like i need to breathe
i want to scream, i want to cry
without it i'd prefer to die.

my heart races at the name
intensifies my lustful pain
threatens to rip my life in two-
this obsession in my blood is you.

you tease me with your kiss
a tiny taste of bliss
enough to make me lose control
i'll sign the deal & sell my soul.

there is so much, you fill me up
i am so thirsty, you fill my cup
you're in my blood, invading me,
you're in my lungs, sustaining me.

when it is done, i ask myself why
i gave into you, i let myself die
my body in shock at the earthquake you created
but i've gotten my fix, i have been sedated....