Affects Of Aids Poem by Ms. JStar

It all started with a cough that just wouldn’t go away
He still hadn’t even admitted he was gay

He felt sick every day, he knew something wasn’t quite right
He didn’t have the strength anymore to fight this fight

After confirmation, then came deep depression
His family finally heard his heartfelt confessions

Depression took over and consumed
His worst fears were a reality and no longer assumed

He gave up hope completely
He was grieving inside deeply

Seclusion was his first defense
Total lies his lover told were the greatest offense

He now needed assistance with mom's care
The pain was more than he could bare

His body was covered with a horrible rash
Continuously cursing at everyone, breaking moms heart with each lash

He didn’t have the energy to get out of bed
It caused extreme pain to even move his head

Thresh would build up in his throat causing him to choke
His only enjoyment was his coffee and to smoke

His friends didn’t understand and was scared to be around
Feelings of abandonment were profound

He lost so much weight that he looked like a skeleton covered with skin
He felt as if he were being punished for his sins

He refused his medication because he no longer wanted his life prolonged
This world he never felt as if he really belonged

He was always teased and tortured his entire childhood
It was obvious he was gay just by the way he stood

In his final days he told mom he saw God and that He needed him
He said that the flowers in His garden were so amazingly beautiful even down to the stems

But he didn’t want to leave his mother here
She told him his time to leave was near

She would miss him dearly but couldn’t stand to see him suffer another day
Saying good bye to her son, wasn’t easy finding the right words to say

Watching the constant torture was driving her insane
After three long years of suffering and pain

I knew he was gone at 5 am, as soon as I heard the phone ringing
It sounded just like the angel's were singing

He was now pain free and in a better place
Now life without him was not easy to face