Again Poem by Katinka Havermans

And again we have come
To the point where you hurt me
And I feel sick to my stomach
By the things I learn about you

And again I feel I am torn
Between my feelings and my intuition
I should have known from the start
But why didn't I listen to myself?

And yet again I feel angry
Not only at you but also
At myself for once again feeling safe
In a relationship with someone who lies

And again, I wonder, why
Why are you lying to me over and over again?
Is it your nature, or your autism, or
Are you confused yourself as well?

Again, we are at a crossroads
Which way do we go now?
It is all on you once again
I feel just like a spectator watching a bad play

© KH