Always There Poem by Danielle Huffman

Today is another day when I feel like I don’t want to live anymore
I have to deal with the same bulls**t that plagues me to my grave
This darkness consumes me
It devours my existence of what life use to be to me
The pain that I feel is so great that it doesn’t even hurt anymore
Its just there, lingering and lurking around
Always reminding me that I will never be free of it
Unless I take matters into my own hands
Into my own hands
You see, I don’t hesitate in saying that at all
Because it is something that is always in my mind anyways
I walk and sleep thinking suicidal thoughts all of the time
So don’t act like you’re blind and pretend like you never
Saw that in me
You always knew that is was there
But you tried to wish it away
But I have news for you
The thoughts still stay
And there is nothing you can do about it anyway.