Am I Still Running From The Dark! ? Poem by Humerous Outlaw

I saw myself curled with my arms around my knees
Wondering things that doesn't make me please
How I wish I could come out and see the light
Why shouldn't I forget the things and stop to fight

Am I too scared to take my face off
Or I am just feared to be ceased again
Or the feeling of being deserted taken over
Or the heart break had left me slain

I opened the door when I realise
I am sleepy but can't close my eyes
Something inside me is restless
Or am I just running from the feeling of being useless

The light came ushered to the figure
Sitting with wrapped arms around the knees and withered
Couldn't recognise the shape I called out her name
Just to glance the face of my forgotten past again

Soon I taken aback seeing the scars
Running down the face and the eyes are dark
Marks of tears show the disaster
Till now I was the one who is running after
I thought I am distancing myself
But I forgot I was chasing the shallow past again
Its not her whose chasing me behind
Its me who's just running insane

I am still standing holding on to my feet
Wanted to run move my legs but didn't feel the heat
Lost all the hopes faith and spark
And then I realise that I am still running from the dark!