An Ode To My Heartache Poem by Jessica Jemima

I've tried to fight you
I've tried to stand tall
But I cannot avoid you
I crawl or I fall

To hide from this danger
Into folly I rush
But I'm ever so blinded
And easy to crush

I know not your weakness
So I sit and I wait
Knowing that help
Is far beyond late

You're uncontrollable
Yet why d'you restrain
From teaching a lesson
To my tired, wounded brain

Each time I step out
And look to the sun
Before it all happens
You've pretty much won

Yet I never remember
What the last outcome was
Even thought it would leave me
Alone and at loss

I do it consistently
Perhaps I will never
Put an end to this patteren
And forever endeavor

To over and over
See beauty in a face
And have bliss till disappointment
Has taken it's place

Then wait till the feelings
Have subsided at last
So I can reflect on my
Repetitive past